Waiting and a Happy Note

Now that we are fairly caught up on our story, my posts will be about present day.

It has been 2 weeks since we first met Colby. Someone asked if we are adopting him from the town of Kamensk-Uralski. Yes, we are. The baby home there is great and we know that Colby is in good hands until we return to get him. HOwever, I hate knowing that he is there and I am here.

The first week or so wasn't to bad. I came home and began working on the medical information that the region requires. It is rather time consuming. I have also been working on the job situation. I am making better headway on the medical stuff than the job stuff. We have set up appointments for all the specialists, I just hope that they will all be helpful and sign the paperwork without too much hassle. As for the job, it still frustrates me. HOpefully that will come soon.

Mike and I did have a setback yesterday dealing with the doctors. Most of the specialists have been very helpful but one doctor is giving us a difficult time. I had a feeling that she might, so I don't know why I was so upset when we left her office. Just being there, thinking about what we need to get through, I was suddenly in tears. Why? I hate crying. I guess that my frustrations just needed to be expressed. I knew that Mike was upset too. I am trying not to get so worked up over this but I just needed to let it out. Writing this blog and reading other blogs has been helpful but a short lived cry never hurt, right?

I am not sure if anyone else has had this problem, but I just can't seem to fall asleep at night. Is this normal? Am I going crazy? My thoughts seem to go into overdrive around 11PM and sleep alludes me. Monday night I couldn't fall asleep at all so I ended up in our family room so I wouldn't disturb Mike. I wrote in my journal and kept staring at the pictures of Colby. Will I ever have a good night's sleep again? Perhaps the whole job frustration and the looming paperwork is the cause, perhaps having Colby so far away is the cause. I think it is both.

On a very happy note, CONGRATS to the Morgans. They have picked up their son from his baby home and they are now a united family. The pictures are so cute! CONGRATS!