Guess It Can Wait

Ok. I give in. I agree with all the comments I recieved and I appreciate them more than you'll ever know. Everyone had the same line of thought. Let the Lord decide. So I will, or at least I will try.

I am not sure why I am drawn to this particular little girl. What drew me in, I'll probably never know. I will keep track of her and hope and pray that she finds a forever family. I guess that is all I can do. No, I am not giving up on adopting more. Believe me, we will. But with a small house, wanting a girl and definitely more than one more child, and having not enough bedrooms, I guess I will have to wait. Our house is small, it is not the house we want forever. Mike wants a house with more land and room for a workshop for his business. I want at least 3 bedrooms and a spare room for crafting, office, etc. I also want out of the city we live in. It is great for now with city preschool and the PAL program that offers great sport activities for Colby. But in the long run, I would like a better neighborhood. However, with this markey, there is no way we can sell our house and hope to get a mortgage on something new. So, we wait. We wait, and we wait.

It seems that I have always pushed my will on my life, trying to force things to happen. I didn't get my first teaching job right away and then only a part-time job. I didn't find my sweetheart right away, we married when I was 30 (ok, 31 the next month). I didn't have children when everyone else did, then I had to travel around the world to winter in Siberia. Nothing has come easy, although it hasn't been tragic or awful either, just..... hard. Now, I feel like I am pushing again. I don't want to push. I want it to be right for me, and for Mike, and especially for Colby. Now may be the right time for me, but I'm not sure it's right for all of us. So, I will stop and wait. I will leave it to God as so many wonderful people have mentioned and see what happens. Maybe I'll wait just a little while, or maybe another year or so. I just hope it won't be too long. But I give in. I hand over control (something I hate to do) to God, life in general, whoever it may be. We'll see what happens.

Help Please....Any Ideas

Ok. I know I have been gone awhile. We just returned from vacation in New Hampshire on Lake Winnepasaukee. I LOVE it there! We had a great time but it is nice to be hme and sleep in my own bed. And I promise to upload some great pics soon.

I'm not sure who really reads my blog anymore, other than a few devoted friends and family but I do need some help, please!! Our adoption agency has a list of "Horizon Kids" as they call them. Often older children or kids with some medical issues who are waiting for their forever families. I am constantly looking at the kids. Some have been on there since we began our adoption of Colby in late 2008. They break my heart. A few weeks ago, the agency posted a new child, a little girl aged 2 1/2. At the time there was no picture of her, just some information. I am not sure why but this posting struck my heart, even without the photo. I called the agency and they did send me her information and a few photos. She is ADORABLE! And she looks so much like Colby did at that age, it is scary. I just can't get her off of my mind. No, we have not started a new home study but Mike and I certainly ahve discussed it the whole vacation. There was a question of whether we could adopt a little girl because we only have the 2 bedroom so she would have to share a bedroom with Colby. But the agency and the regional representative where the girl is said it shouldn't be a problem. Wow! One hurdle gone. However, the HUGE hurdle still lurks. MONEY! I do know that the agency has a few subsidies for their Horizon Kids but they are not guaranteed.

OK guys. What do I do? Has anyone else taken subsidies, know of places that help finance adoptions, anything? If we begin our home study we aren't guaranteed to get this little girl, another family who is farther along than us can take her first. But, I'd love to try. I'm from a big family and so is Mike. I can't see having an only child. Colby really needs a sibling or two or three. It just feels like now is the time. He's been home almost 2 1/2 years and the ages would work great, just under 2 years apart. HELP!!! The heart says yes but the finances say yikes! Not sure we can finance this one alone.

Colby's First Music Videos

Now that I have a really cool phone, internet ready, I can upload some cute videos. So, here are a few of my little singer. Perhaps another Billy Joel?? What do you think?

Some Summer Fun in Pics and Videos

Just a Cute Story

We were on our way to the store last night when this conversation insued. I pretty much listened as Colby and Mike had this very cute and insightful conversation.

C- Why did we go this way? Home is that way Daddy. (pointing towards the way home.)
D- We're going to the store.
C- What store?
D- KMart to look for chairs for outside.
C- Oh. I don't want to go there. Let's go to another store.
D- How about the Moon Store?
C- The Moon Store? That's just silly. I'm pretty sure this neighborhood (yes, I was shocked to hear that word.) doesn't have a Moon Store.
D- Oh. But I want to go to the Moon Store. What should we do.
C- Well, let's call the moon people and tell them to make a moon store here. OK, Daddy?
Both Daddy and I looked at each other pretty surprised by that logical thinking.
D- Oh. Good idea. What should they sell at the Moon Store?
C- Oh moon stuff. Moons and stars and guys dressed to go to the moon. And rocket ships.
M- Colby you are one smart little boy. That's a great idea.
C- I know.

Ok. Some words aren't exact but talk about an interesting conversation. We were both amazed. Where do they learn this stuff???

What conversations do you have with your little ones?

Last Day Preschool 2010-2011

I can't believe it but today was Colby's last day of 3 year old preschool. Where did the year go? His class had a little ice cream celebration today and invited the parents. So what else could I do? I took the day off from work! I loved getting the chance to put Colby on the bus, as I did this past fall. And both Mike and I enjoyed spending the time with him in his class. He has learned to much this year and grown even more. I can't thank his teachers enough. And yes, Igot a pic waiting for the bus so here's a cute before and after for you. The first day of preschool Aug 2010 and the last day June 16, 2011. Wow!

Weekend Fun

Ok. I've been MIA. I admit, there has been a lot of things going on. School is winding down. Colby will finish his first year of pre-school in just 4 days. I am done next Monday. I've been caught up in end of the year assessments and trying to get started on packing up. The school I am at is closing and most of us are going to the new school that they just finished renovating. It is over 100 years old but looks brand new. But packing up a whole school is going to be quite a challenge. Other than that, we have been enjoying T-ball practices and games. Colby is now registered for swim lessons through the PAL league this summer. And we hope to enjoy a week away in New Hampshire. We'll see if that works. But for now, a few great photos from the past two weekends. We enjoyed the Woodbury Memorial Parade this year. The big Naugatuck parade was almost rained out but we didn't bring the horses anyway. Colby loved driving Willy Wild all by himself. He looked so grown up! Then last weekend we went to Harkness Park for our annual Kite-Flying picnic with our adoption agency. There weren't as many people there this year though. Colby missed playing with Nicholas and Sean but he had a great time with Connor! Those two are like two peas in a pod. Watching them together you can't help but laugh. Hopefully we can get together with him and his mommy and daddy for many play dates. So, enjoy these great photos!