The Big E

This past weekend we brought Colby to the Big E. It is a huge fall festival in Massachusetts. Around here, it is the unofficial end to summer and runs for about 3 weeks into October. It was Colby's first time there and we all had a blast. We saw the circus, the parade full of tractors, Mardi Gras type floats, and Budweiser Clydesdales, and lots of animals. We watched the draft horse show and we even listened to a music group. Colby loved that and began dancing to the beat. Everyone around him turned to watch him. He was so cute. Colby is still talking about the circus, his very first. I can't wait to bring him to a big circus. So, here are a few cute photos.

Corn Maze and a Happy Birthday

This past weekend Colby and I went with my mom, Aunt Doone, and Jaden to a corn maze at Lyman Orchards. We had a great time, even though we were lost for quite awhile, along with a bunch of other people. Lyman Orchard does a corn maze every year. Last year it had a presidential feel, this year was a UCONN theme. Specifically, the UCONN Huskies girls' basketball team. It was in the shape of the coach's (Geno Auriemma) head, the husky mascot and a ball. It was tricky to get through the first part. I think Aunt Doone got a little worried but we made it out and the boys had a great time.

Today is my mom's birthday. Although she's on vacation Colby and I were able to call and sing Happy Birthday to her. I hope she has a great day. She definitely deserves the rest and relaxation.

This weekend, no plans set but I do hope to get to the Big E or perhaps apple picking. And of course it is football season so I need to watch the Pats and the Giants.

My Snuggles

Today was such a great day. I'm not sure why but everything seemed less stressful and more fun. I had an interview in the morning so Mike stayed home to put Colby on the bus. I left after he ate breakfast and I got him dressed. When Colby came home he was in great spirits. He is loving that bus. We had lunch and he went down for a nap. About an hour and a half later he came out to the family room, climbed on my lap, and snuggled in for another half hour of sleep. I so miss those times when he would cuddle with me like that. Granted my arm fell asleep because he has gotten so big, but I loved that quiet time. We went outside and went on the swings and Colby rode his new bike for a little while. Mike's Uncle Steven sent it from Utah. It is a wooden Radio Flyer two wheeler without pedals. You sit on it and push with your feet while trying to learn how to balance. It is the wierdest bike I've ever seen but Colby is really getting the hang of it and can balance pretty good. Now I want to put the training wheels up a little on his big boy bike. Then while dinner was cooking we played an ABC game and just had fun.

As much fun as we had before dinner, boy did Colby find a way to get into trouble after dinner. He snuck candy off the side table after we had all just had some. This is a BIG problem we have found lately. Colby is starting to sneak things, especially food treats and candy. Not sure how to deal with this one. Then while Mike was trying to do some paper work, Colby brought out his crayons and markers and was supposedly sitting on the floor next to him coloring a paper but, nope, he colored the floor, the door to the basement, and part of the desk. Ugh! Thankfully I only have washable markers! I'm not sure how sucha great day went downhill so fast. I do know that the trouble started when the eye patch was put on. It seems Colby looses all control when he wears that. Not sure of the correlation, but it is true. Poor eyesight = poor self-control. Go figure!

Well, we ended the night with baking pretzles (after Colby dumped the yeast all over the counter). Melted butter and cinnamon topping always make things better, right?

Struggles

Today just hasn't turned out to be a great day. Truthfully it hasn't been a great few days. Colby brought home some sort of cold which had him stuffy for a day or so but Mike got it really bad. Me, it landed as a huge headache for 4 days or so. And I guess I'm just not handling all the change as well as I should.

I thought going to Preschool would be a big deal for Colby. He should care that I am leaving him, right? He shouldn't want to go on a school bus by himself, right? But he does. He is all to eager to go off without me. And that leaves me home with nothing to do. Well, except the laundry, the dishes and whatever. I guess I am just not sure where I fit in now. I was a student, then I became the teacher, now I'm not either. I was me, then a wife, now a mom. But what does that mean.

In this time, I have also had a few more interviews for teaching. Don't know how I feel about that either. At times I am excited about perhaps going back but then I worry about missing things with Colby. What if he gets sick or school is canceled? I feel like staying at home is important but yet at the same time Colby doesn't seem to need me there anymore, not if he's going to be at school. I feel that teaching is important too but I don't know if I am ready to go back to it yet either. I am at a crossroads and can't seem to find the energy to move. I don't know which way to turn so here I sit, stuck.

And I really miss Mamie......
http://adoptingcolby.blogspot.com/2009/09/mamie.html

I guess this says it all. While Colby sits mad at me, I sit, not knowing how to fix it all.

On the Bus

Well, Colby is now riding on the bus! Yup, my little boy is becoming quite independent. Last week he threw a fit when I picked him up. He saw so many other kids going on the bus and he wanted to as well. So I decided to wait out the week and start the bus this week. I was worried he wouldn't like going by himself but he was so excited. Yesterday he hopped on the bus and barely looked back. I was able to snap just a couple photos and then he was off to school. No hug or kiss. I'm so happy that he loves the bus and being so grown up but I miss my goodbye hugs and kisses. I'll have to snatch them before the bus comes. But here's the big boy!